Frustration…

How do you deal with being frustrated? I probably don’t deal with it the best way, I tend to hold everything in and get short in my answers. Again this is one of those situations where it is probably better to go straight to the person and put everything out there but I don’t think I communicate very well under stress like that, especially in a workplace situation. I don’t know how else to handle it. My feelings of frustration are because of the receptionist that I’ve been training. She is young but is a bright, well spoken, fun human. She also tends to forget or be a little scattered and doesn’t pay attention to me or what she may have done before or she tries to re-work a project I’ve given her and given the perimeters of what she should do. I guess I would say she  is constantly trying to reinvent the wheel. Which would be great if she had any idea of what she was trying to re-invent. I give clear directions when asking her to do something along with written notes if needed. I show her examples of work done before and yet I still get question after question. She is trying hard to learn but she is trying to learn things she isn’t ready to handle yet while not being good at what she was hired for. My boss is on vacation and that in itself is stressful because I really have no back up. I can’t just take a break or an afternoon off because there is no one else. This week has been tough, we had a blow up and then talked about it and corrected it, and even though I was done and had said my piece the day before, she wanted to go back and talk about it, which stresses me out again. I’ve talked to my other two co-workers and feel better because I’m not the only one who has these feelings of being inadequate at training because the people under us aren’t getting it but also realizing that it isn’t always us, that some of it is that the skills aren’t always there yet in the other person. I was starting to get frustrated again today and decided to just stop and explain to her what I needed from her and I think it went better. I guess I won’t know until I’ve had a chance to talk to my boss and she sees some of what’s going on, but I hope we’ve taken at turn and I do feel like she was hearing me and trying to make a change which I hope in the future will start to take a bit of the load off me. Only time will tell.

I just feel like I haven’t been handling myself well these last few weeks and feel as though personal parts of my life have suffered. I haven’t been a good partner to my husband because I’ve been so tired. Being frustrated at work and doing the job of two other people can tire you out, and feel like I’m whining a lot. I haven’t wanted to cook or walk, I just want go home and shut my brain off. Not conducive to being a loving and caring wife. I’m fortunate that I have the best husband in the world who is always there to hug me, back me up and take care of me. I couldn’t do it without him. The weekend of quiet was much needed and hopefully our office will be back to full staff, at least for a couple of days. I found this quote and it hit the nail on my last week or so. Hopefully I can make a conscious effort to work harder to control my frustration.♥